Saturday, January 15, 2005
Yesterday I had a phone call at work. At first I thought it was a school ringing to book a software fair, then it became evident that I was being asked to do a day's supply teaching on Monday. I am on the supply list in Wrexham but this was the first time they had contacted me. Against my better judgement I agreed to do it but within ten minutes, battling with increasing feelings of panic, I rang them back and said I wasn't available after all. The truth is that, since leaving my teaching job, with great relief, last summer, I have never felt the least desire to go back into the classroom, but actually it goes much deeper than that and I am left asking myself how on earth the job and its pressures have left me feeling incapable of ever standing in front of a class again.